3 days agoAnd I will never have roses againIn a handful of days the sun will riseBirthday Poem1 min readPhoto by Felipe Salgado on UnsplashAnd I will never have roses again----
Jun 13Shadow walkingI remember I wrote a poem once a long time ago — I don’t know what became of it — about how I left a little bit of myself, a shadow self, in all the places which were somehow important to me, as I left them behind. And they’re real. …Shadow Walking3 min read
Apr 27Caregiving 101: Forgetting JoyMy father died in 2013, leaving as his legacy his widow, my mother, for me to care for. I have been doing that for nearly a decade now — but for a lot of that time I had been bolstered by the presence of my husband, who was a staunch…Caregiver Support7 min read
Apr 16Caregiving 101: Behind the curtainI had a sweet and blessed childhood and young-adulthood, okay? I admit it. I had grandparents who doted on me (my maternal grandmother was the person who showed me what unconditional love was), my parents supported me in every way imaginable (but we’ll get back to that…), I was one…Caregiver Burnout12 min read
Feb 9UselessnessIf I may front-load with a metaphor, life is sort of like a train journey. It’s a funny little train, if you like, and your “car” is often just attached to others as the train trundles on, and there you go on your tracks, connected to friends and family travelling…Uselessness4 min read
Feb 4Too deep for tearsTwo days ago it was the first anniversary of my husband’s death. The first year of my widowhood has fled somehow and there are moments in which I cannot make myself believe that. It means that I have now already spent a not insignificant percentage of the time I spent…Widowsgrief5 min read
Dec 22, 2021SolsticeThey say it might snow tomorrow. Or now. Who knows?Winter Solstice1 min readSolstice----
Dec 9, 2021The Dark RoadI chronicled the last journey of my beloved, right until the end. And social media has a long memory. I woke up shaking on December 7 because that was the day on which he first “died”, when his heart stopped and they brought him back via some difficult CPR which…Grief Journey5 min read
Oct 9, 2021If Grief Was A ChildIf Grief was a child which was conceived on the night they took you away from the ER to help you heal, that child would have been born in August, in the summer, born under blue skies — it would have been four months old on the anniversary of the…Grief And Loss2 min read
Sep 23, 2021A day in the life9 AM Cats want breakfas. Drag self out of bed. Debate whether or not I woke up with a headache. Feed cats. Make sure they have water. Fifteen hours left to fill. 10 AM Put the recycling together, take it out to kerbside. Clean litter boxes, put in trash bag, …Grief4 min read
